I was a senior in high school and desperate for some sort of social outlet for interacting with other gays and lesbians. When I read about the Houston Pride band in a copy of the Gay and Lesbian Yellow pages, I, thought, " Hey, I'm, a band geek What better way to spend my time."
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.. That was a mistake; but that is for a different post...I had told the conductor that I played clarinet and alto sax so she could put me where they needed .me. When I saw B walk in with a clarinet bag, I knew I had made a mistake, as they needed me in the saxophone section. It was total love at first sight for both of us. The next week I left my sax in the boot of my car(Probably not the smartest thing to do in that part of town) claiming that it was in the shop but offering to join the clarinets.
So I got to sit right next to that clarinet guy and we struck up a conversation, taking every slight break to talk the whole night. Ithink we talked in the parking lot well after everyone else had gone.. we had traded phone numbers and email addrsses and he had convinced me into getting AIM. That nigh we were talking for hoursI was in love and this time I knew it was Rreal, Jnot just somepassing fancy. That weekend he was at my house to visit and play duets the lfolowing week we skipped rehearsal to have some alone time and we officially became a couple . I was elated. I new i was finally done with little one/two month mini relationhips, and would be with him forever. Shortly after I found oout I had HI,Ispent sthe better part of a night cryingbecause I thoughtI'd lose him- either because I'd get sick and die before I was ready to lose h,,m Or he'd decide He couldn't live with the whole HIV thing and decide we needed to separate. As wonderful as B has been through this whole lymphoma and rehab ordeal, I now Know that i was just being stupid. He's been my source of strength and support and sanity. Were he not in my life, I likely would have given up hope at the beginning of August.we'll have been together eleven years in April f 2009and love him 10000times more than I did the day he said he'd be my boyfriend. I wouldn't trade a day o our relationship for all the money in the world
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