OMG!!! i'm FAT!!!

I feel so fat right now.. and not the good type "phat"... i now weigh 145.. compared to 6 months ago i'm a pig!.. i used to be able to fit in a tight pair of 28-waist jeans.. if they were Levi's which run a little loose.. or 29-30's if they were tighter brands like Mavi.. but now I can't even get into a 30" Levi... :-(

Need to go to the Gym with B some i guess... I actually have a belly now, which I haven't had in 15-18 years.. :-( I feel so ugly... and pot-bellied... ick...

in June my insurance stopped covering most of the Atripla, which we weren't expecting.. so i had to fork out over $1200 and sent me and my mom into panic moke trying to to find out how we can get my meds covered by the state or something else.. but thing worked out and i'll be getting meds from the Atripla people for a few months..

B and I just got back from a week long trip to Iowa to visit his family.. Was NOT ready to come back to Houston Heat... time to win the lottery and buy a summer home..:-)

anyway.. enough about my vanity.. I go in Monday for my next labs..and will get results next Tuesday.. feeling good right now except for my body conciousness.